I started #JanuaryJumpStart to kick my own ass into gear and get back into the discipline of writing daily after the luxuriant holidays and a bit of a dry spell. Well, the egg is on my face, friends: I’m struggling. I know it’s not pass or fail and I’m certainly not judging any of the other writers who are contributing if they are not doing so daily, but I thought I’d make it at least through the first week. Not so.
The trouble for me is twofold. Firstly, if I’m not feeling very sexy, I struggle to write sexy stuff. You know how on Seinfeld, George over packs for the trip he and Jerry take because he dresses according to mood? That’s me with sex blogging, if the stars haven’t aligned and my coffee is too hot or too cold or WHATEVER, then it’s over, forget it, try again tomorrow. Now, I know this is a garbage reason to not write. I have been a creative person all my life and I know that waiting for the perfect moment to create something or for all of the elements at play to be just so means you will literally never get anything made. I get it. But I hate it.
My second challenge is that I struggle to conjure up sexiness. If I’m not feeling it, it’s very unlikely that porn, erotica, sex or masturbation will get the juices flowing. Sex is so mental and I very much believe that our brains are our juiciest sex organs, but if the flesh is unwilling …. womp, womp. <insert sad trombone sound here> I have never been someone who can manufacture desire or cajole my body into excitement. As I wrote back in April, for a sex and erotica blogger, I don’t spend much time self-serving and a lot of that has to do with life priorities but it’s also about avoiding frustration and disappointment when I want to be turned on and I can’t make it happen.
So, the challenge continues. If, like me, you want to challenge yourself to be more prolific with your blogging, join in on #JanuaryJumpStart – there are so many awesome pieces linked up as well as to all the other community memes that help keep the creativity flowing.
Happy writing, wish me luck, more tomorrow. Promise!